I wiped a tear as I limped through the house today. It’s not the first time yesterday’s events are making me cry just a little; I cried a little before I slept and call me a softie but I need to talk about it in order to get over it.
Let me start at the beginning; while on my way home yesterday we had a minor accident. The driver of the bus I was in was in a hurry to get to town during rush hour so they could raise fare for the hundreds of Kenyans coming from work. We hit an oncoming vehicle and though not serious I did bash my knee pretty good.
How many people haven’t been as lucky as I have? How many people haven’t walked away with just a slightly swollen knee and a slight limp? All it takes is the mistake of one person and before you know it my mum is making phone calls and my sister is coming in from Mombasa crying all the way. Forgive me for being over dramatic or being so morbid on a blog that should bring smiles. Once again in a very short time I was reminded just how short the leash we are on is, it can snap anytime and you’re gone. Life is short YOLO I will not stop preaching this message; don’t put off what you need to do today.
When my brother went to America back in 2004 I was crushed, here was my best friend (I’ve got dozens) leaving I wouldn’t see him anymore, he wouldn’t’ call me anymore to tell me he’s hungry and needed something to eat. He wouldn’t hug me and call me mtoi anymore. All that was left was phone calls, emails and when it came about Facebook. But his girlfriend Rose reminded me not to worry we could always travel and see him. I sorta got used to it but now I miss Rose and I can’t email her, facebook her, tweet her or even call her because where she went they don’t have those things. Death isn’t like travelling. Death is so final and though one is left with this absence like when someone leaves the country there is no hope of a reunion over Christmas; once that door closes there is no opening it. I’ve got millions of words running through me just to stress how short life is but I’ll leave it at that.
The shortsightedness of human nature is such that we never say or do what we need to when we have the time rather when the opportunity is gone we start regretting saying “I wish I knew”. You don’t know what tomorrow will bring so today do what you’ve been afraid to do, cross that bridge, say those words, forgive that person or ask for forgiveness. Live life such that when you look back at your life you will have no regrets.